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Life and Las Vegas

All you needs a strong heart and a nerve of steel
Viva las vegas, viva las vegas

– Elvis Presley

Well, Elvis is right about one thing; enough about death. Time to live. I’ve got a place, of sorts, for the rains, and it happens to be a condominium in an upscale neighbourhood in Las Vegas or, “The Meadows”, to which its charming name translates.

I’ve heard it said that Las Vegas is better known as “Sin City”, and this is often cited as a reason against moving there. Personally, I don’t see the difference, as I hold fast to the notion that a monk has left society by very definition. My condo might as well be a cave in a rainforest. And anyway, it’s quite far from “the strip”. Here’s the location in google maps:


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I’ve got this idea to hold meditation sessions on the weekends, but otherwise it should be a quiet three months, just me and Patrick.

Until the 6th, I’m at Wat Thai of Los Angeles, walking for alms as usual to the restaurant down the block.

Just listen to Mr. Zimmerman:

And you yell to yourself and you throw down yer hat
Sayin’, “Christ do I gotta be like that
Ain’t there no one here that knows where I’m at
Ain’t there no one here that knows how I feel
Good God Almighty that stuff ain’t real.”

No but that ain’t yer game, it ain’t even yer race
You can’t hear yer name, you can’t see yer face
You gotta look some other place
And where do you look for this hope that yer seekin’
Where do you look for this lamp that’s a-burnin’
Where do you look for this oil well gushin’
Where do you look for this candle that’s glowin’
Where do you look for this hope that you know is there
And out there somewhere
And your feet can only walk down two kinds of roads
Your eyes can only look through two kinds of windows
Your nose can only smell two kinds of hallways
You can touch and twist
And turn two kinds of doorknobs
You can either go to the church of your choice
Or you can go to Brooklyn State Hospital
You’ll find God in the church of your choice
You’ll find Woody Guthrie in Brooklyn State Hospital

And though it’s only my opinion
I may be right or wrong
You’ll find them both
In the Grand Canyon,
sundown.

– Bob Dylan, “Last Thoughts on Woody Guthrie”

Home, Sweet Home

Last night I slept in the closest thing I could call a home, the park I’m sitting in in the header of this weblog. It was the happiest night I’ve spent in a long time. I think there is far too little said about the life of a homeless person; the intense suffering of being subject to the elements balanced with the spiritual freedom from ego that comes from being at the bottom of the barrel. What tips the scales, of course, is the bliss of freedom that comes from being alone and unfettered. Which is more than I can say for my “supporters” here, most of whom freaked out when I disappeared… I was expected to stay at one of two houses, neither of which was really willing to have me stay, but when I disappeared, there was considerable consternation. They even searched the park, but I swear the angels of this city were on my side, because I was walked right past without being seen. I slept under a picnic table for both shelter from the wind, and from prying eyes and law-enforcement officers.

‘Suppose, O king, there appears in the world one who has won the truth, an Arahat, a fully awakened one, abounding in wisdom and goodness; happy, who knows all worlds, unsurpassed as a guide to mortals willing to be led, a teacher for gods and men, a Blessed One, a Buddha. He, by himself, thoroughly knows and sees, as it were, face to face this universe – including the worlds above of the gods, the Brahmas, and the Maras, and the world below with its recluses and Brahmans, its princes and peoples – and having known it, he makes his knowledge known to others. The truth, lovely in its origin, lovely in its progress, lovely in its consummation, doth he proclaim, both in the spirit and in the letter, the higher life doth he make known, in all its fullness and in all its purity.

A householder or one of his children, or a man of inferior birth in any class listens to that truth; and on hearing it he has faith in the Tathâgata (the one who has found the truth); and when he is possessed of that faith, he considers thus within himself:

‘”Full of hindrances is household life, a path for the dust of passion. Free as the air is the life of him who has renounced all worldly things. How difficult is it for the man who dwells at home to live the higher life in all its fullness, in all its purity, in all its bright perfection! Let me then cut off my hair and beard, let me clothe myself in the orange-coloured robes, and let me go forth from the household life into the homeless state.”

‘Then, before long, forsaking his portion of wealth, be it great or small, forsaking his circle of relatives, be they many or be they few, he cuts off his hair and beard, he clothes himself in the orange-coloured robes, and he goes forth from the household life into the homeless state.

‘When he has thus become a recluse he lives self-restrained by that restraint that should be binding on a recluse. Uprightness is his delight, and he sees danger in the least of those things he should avoid. He adopts, and trains himself in, the precepts. He encompasses himself with good deeds in act and word. Pure are his means of livelihood, good is his conduct, guarded the door of his senses. Mindful and self-possessed he is altogether happy.

– SÂMAÑÑA-PHALA SUTTA (Trans. Rhys-Davids)

Again, here’s a link to a great Buddhist blog on homelessness:

http://sacramentohomeless.blogspot.com/

Die, Death, Die

I was asked to translate a passage from the Therīgāthā, and so I thought I would share it here, since it seems rather pertinent:

sabbattha vihatā nandī,

I am one who has delight (nandī) destroyed (vihatā) in all things (sabbattha),

tamokhandho padālito.

one by whom the mass (khandho) of darkness (tamo – part of the mana group, it ends in -o even in compounds) was pierced (padālito).

evaṃ jānāhi pāpima,

Thus (evam), o evil one (pāpima), may you know me (jānāhi)

nihato tvamasi antaka

You (tvam) are (asi) defeated, end-maker (antaka – one who brings an end, ie death).

or, in English:

Having destroyed delight in all things,

One who has pierced the mass of darkness;

Thus, o evil one, may you know me.

You are defeated, end-maker.

- Therīgāthā, 3.7 selātherīgāthā

Bandaid

Before my last post garners any more response, I thought I’d clear it up a little…

My purpose in writing is not to whine, just to explain. Please don’t write to me offering constructive criticism on how to improve my relationship with cultural Buddhism. It’s a dysfunctional relationship that will never be repaired. I have resolved myself to starting a monastery of my own, it’s not a dismal or hopeless situation for me, just one that many Westerners have come to in their search for a Buddhist path that does not make them a perpetual guest in someone else’s home. Again, I am writing, not to vent, but to explain. I think I’m ill-suited to the task, as my explanations have fallen on deaf ears for months. I can only guess that it takes a monastic to understand the situation even generally.

And I’m not going to kill myself… at least not the physical self. Killing the mental self, though, is a very good thing, something I recommend to all my students, and in fact everyone. And please, no wisecracks about how my problem is that I still haven’t killed my idea of self. If that be so, I should be congratulated on my effort to find a suitable place to do so.

So, unless you are a monk, please don’t even try to offer advice – I don’t really feel the need for it anyway. If, on the other hand, you have a place for me to stay the rains, I’m all ears.

I am not staying at a Wat Thai this rains retreat. ANY Wat Thai. And I’m not going to apologize for that. I’d like to take a little time to explain why I’ve come to this decision, as most people are unable to understand why I would come to such a strange decision. Strange to them, of course, for it seems perfectly reasonable to me, having been ordained as a Thai monk and lived with Thai monks for the past 7 years.
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This is the closest I get to commenting on politics… Mr. President, if I were an American, you’d have just lost my vote…

Just got meself a skype number: +1 818 824 6654… not to be an unpaid advertisement for the sky people, but it costs my students $5 a month to get me a telephone number and unlimited calling to anywhere in North America. And now I have an excuse when people try to offer to get me a mobile phone. The real beauty is that it comes with voicemail, so I don’t have to actually receive calls, just listen to voice mail from time to time. So, what are you waiting for? Skype me.

In other geeky news, I tried changing the theme for my weblog, due to technical difficulties with “Misty Look”, but alas, there is no theme out there quite so “me” as this one (or so says my mom).

Finally, in real monk news, I think I’ve narrowed down the rainy season to a shu-win. Back to Wat Thai of Los Angeles. Let’s recap, shall we?

1. Castaic Lake, owned by two nice people who were ready to give me their house indefinitely. That fell through.
2. Mohave Desert, 250 acres – nice, if you don’t mind the high winds and 50 degree (centigrade) temperatures.
3. San Diego, a $500,000 RV owned by the creators of Rainbow sandals. Somehow it didn’t seem to fit the monk shoe…
4. Minnesota, another Wat Thai. Nuff said.
5. Vermont, a yurt.
6. Lagoona Beach, a million-dollar mansion. They’re renovating.
7. Reseda, a kuti under a Bodhi tree. They couldn’t get a permit.
8. Las Vegas, a condo. With a communal swimming pool. Actually “Las Vegas” was enough to make me hesitate.
9. My father’s barn. Okay, maybe next year, dad.
10. Santa Barbara, a long shot. Still no word on this one, but I think I’ll let it go.

This is how samsara works… it sends you on a wild-goose chase and brings you right back to where you started.

Just mulling over my last post when I got an email from a monk, Thitadhamma, with the following story:

Zhuangzi was walking on a mountain, when he saw a great tree with huge branches and luxuriant foliage. A wood-cutter was resting by its side, but he would not touch it, and, when asked the reason, said, that it was of no use for anything, Zhuangzi then said to his disciples, ‘This tree, because its wood is good for nothing, will succeed in living out its natural term of years.’ Having left the mountain, the Master lodged in the house of an old friend, who was glad to see him, and ordered his waiting-lad to kill a goose and boil it. The lad said, ‘One of our geese can cackle, and the other cannot – which of them shall I kill?’ The host said, ‘Kill the one that cannot cackle.’

Next day, his disciples asked Zhuangzi, saying, ‘Yesterday the tree on the mountain (you said) would live out its years because of the uselessness of its wood, and now our host’s goose has died because of its want of power (to cackle) – which of these conditions, Master, would you prefer to be in?’ Zhuangzi laughed and said, ‘(If I said that) I would prefer to be in a position between being fit to be useful and wanting that fitness, that would seem to be the right position, but it would not be so, for it would not put me beyond being involved in trouble; whereas one who takes his seat on the Dao and its Attributes, and there finds his ease and enjoyment, is not exposed to such a contingency. He is above the reach both of praise and of detraction; now he (mounts aloft) like a dragon, now he (keeps beneath) like a snake; he is transformed with the (changing) character of the time, and is not willing to addict himself to any one thing; now in a high position and now in a low, he is in harmony with all his surroundings; he enjoys himself at ease with the Author of all things; he treats things as things, and is not a thing to them: where is his liability to be involved in trouble? This was the method of Shan Nong and Huang-Di. As to those who occupy themselves with the qualities of things, and with the teaching and practice of the human relations, it is not so with them. Union brings on separation; success, overthrow; sharp corners, the use of the file; honour, critical remarks; active exertion, failure; wisdom, scheming; inferiority, being despised: where is the possibility of unchangeableness in any of these conditions? Remember this, my disciples. Let your abode be here – in the Dao and its Attributes.’

(source)

So, the idea is that even worthlessness should not be adhered to… I think I can agree with that, except that I have an inherent belief that everything is “worthless”, in the sense that any “worth” we can possibly apply to an object is merely a subjective and temporary label, worth only as much as its ephemeral resulting benefit, which, in the end, seems to be inevitably worthless as well. I suppose the only exception being nibbana and the path thereto. Certainly I, of all things, am worthless in this matter.

Anyway, here’s two more stories on the matter:

First from the Vinaya (parajika), a monk steals some wood that the king had cut and left piled in the forest. When brought before the king, he claimed that the king had given permission to the monks to take whatever fallen wood they could find in the forest. The king replied that his allowance had been for monks with a sense of shame, and says: “gaccha, bhikkhu! Lomena tvaṃ muttosi!” Which means, “scram, monk! You are saved by your fleece!” The commentary gives the following explanation:

lomena tvaṃ muttosī ti ettha lomamiva lomaṃ, kiṃ pana taṃ? pabbajjāliṅgaṃ. kiṃ vuttaṃ hoti? yathā nāma dhuttā “maṃsaṃ khādissāmā“ti mahagghalomaṃ eḷakaṃ gaṇheyyuṃ. tamenaṃ añño viññupuriso disvā “imassa eḷakassa maṃsaṃ kahāpaṇamattaṃ agghati. lomāni pana lomavāre lomavāre aneke kahāpaṇe agghantī“ti dve alomake eḷake datvā gaṇheyya. evaṃ so eḷako viññupurisamāgamma lomena mucceyya. evameva tvaṃ imassa kammassa katattā vadhabandhanāraho. yasmā pana arahaddhajo sabbhi avajjharūpo, tvañca sāsane pabbajitattā yaṃ pabbajjāliṅgabhūtaṃ arahaddhajaṃ dhāresi. tasmā tvaṃ iminā pabbajjāliṅgalomena eḷako viya viññupurisamāgamma muttosīti.

For those of you not fluent in this tongue, the gist is that, like a sheep with a special fleece that escapes slaughter because its fleece happens to be worth more than its flesh, the monk who stole is free from the king’s wrath because of his robes (the king was a devout Buddhist).

The second story comes from the Jataka (Mahajanaka), wherein the Bodhisatta, a king, is taken to a garden with two mango trees, one full of fruit and another barren. Nobody dares to touch the fruit, because the king has not yet tasted them. The king tastes the fruit and likes it very much. He thinks to himself that he will return for more later, and continues on in the garden. When he returns, though, the whole crowd of courtiers, etc, have stripped the fruitful tree bare, broken its branches and stripped its leaves. This leads the Bodhisatta to give up his kingship in favour of recluseship. He later explains:

The fruitful tree stood there forlorn, its leaves all stripped, its branches bare,
The barren tree stood green and strong, its foilage waving in the air.

We kings are like that fruitful tree, with many a fow to lay us low,
And rob us of the pleasant fruit, which for a little while we show.

The elephant for ivory, the panther for its skin is slain,
Houseless and friendless at the last, the wealthy find their wealth their bane;
That pair of trees my teachers were, – from them my lesson did I gain.

The whole sixth book of the Jataka, including this story, is available for download at Google Books:

http://books.google.com/books?uid=18014954414967440482

God’s Delusion

Okay, to be fair, I think I’ve been nasty enough to God as it is, so I thought I would take it easy on the invisible bloke for once. Instead, I thought I’d share this funny piece of audio about his followers:

This is taken from The God Delusion, a book by Richard Dawkins.

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