Without Internet, I have a little time for reading. Today, Emerson:
"Great men, great nations, have not been boasters and buffoons, but perceivers of the terror of life, and have manned themselves to face it."
"Nature is no sentimentalist, -- does not cosset or pamper us. We must see that the world is rough and surly, and will not mind drowning a man or a woman; but swallows your ship like a grain of dust."
Source: Ralph Waldo Emerson, The Conduct of Life
I've always felt rather unprepared for life... I think that here in the forest I will now have the chance to "man myself to face it." Specifically, I hope I will not grow old and die in vain, without learning the truth about this world and the next; without freeing myself from those things which bind me to the wheel of suffering.